Stupid sidebar

By the way, fuck the sidebar in it's stupid bottom-hugging ass. I've just wasted the last hour and a half trying to figure out how to fix the motherfucker and can't figure it out for the life of me. I have small images, I don't have long URLs...just fuck it, I don't give a shit at this point, I'm just too fucking aggravated.

Oh look, a blog!

Okay, so I haven't written in this thing for a very long time. The lack of an outraged deluge of emails protesting my inattention to this site had nothing to do with it, believe it or not. Upon further reflection, I think my main reason for not writing can be traced to my current job: it sucks your soul and gnaws away at your sanity until you are nothing but a brainless mass, going through the motions of actual thought and returning home to stare at mindless sitcoms and the next big crime drama show.

The funny thing? I had an opportunity to leave and, despite any principles I may have, I passed on it after being offered more money here. In short, I find an awesome job through a friend, I apply and interview for same job and they love me, I turn in my resignation at my current job who then comes out of nowhere with an offer that is frankly more money than I've ever earned in my life, I realize how many bills I'm behind on and how shitty my car is and rescind my resignation. So yes, although I've been crying for years about how our dependence on money is just sad and pathetic, I turn out to be just another whore for the right amount of said cash and a rather meaningless middle-management title.

It really is a lot more money, though.

Despite my bitching, the job really isn't as bad as I make it out to be. Wait, that's not true...it's worse. I've just become more adept at dealing with it. With the worry of stretching the pathetic amount I was getting paid now gone, I've found that my tolerance for the amount of bullshit that goes on in this place has definitely gone up; for the most part when things start aggravating me all I have to do is think of my paycheck and suddenly, magically, the aggravation evaporates away! Really though, I figure that if I can stick it out here for at least a year, that will be one year of management experience on my resume that I can then take and parlay it into a decent job with a real company if I so desire.

In the meantime, I'll continue working on the things that I truly enjoy doing...like this writing thing. Eventually I'd like to start putting things on this site that aren't internal monologues, i.e. game reviews and discussion, Linux stuff or whatever geeky stuff I'm into at the time. Maybe I'll use a different site for that, now that I think about it. I'd hate to write something that a lot of people really like and have everybody and their grandmother critique my self-centered ramblings. I think I will keep this site as my "pressure valve" and a way to just throw ideas out there. Better yet, a place where I can just sit down and type whatever comes to my mind and vomit it out onto a site with a potential to reach millions of readers.

Yeah, great idea.